Before I worked at a sex store, I never really watched porn. There are only 2 times I remember watching it. One was when me and a bunch of my guy friends in High School were drinking all day because someone’s parents were out of town, and the only scene I caught from the couch was a DP extreme close-up, which didn’t leave me wanting more. The other time was in college at a dorm party, and while it was entertaining to watch while drinking in a group, I still didn’t think of it as something I was attracted to doing alone for myself. The only people I ever heard talking about watching porn and liking it were guys, whether in real life or on TV, so I pretty much ignored porn and figured it was just something guys did.
When I started working at a sex store, one of my coworkers was a huge porn fan, so I was instantly curious and started borrowing some of her movies. One of the first videos she let me borrow was Pirates, and although I didn’t like that all of the main characters had huge fake boobs and were overly tan, I did enjoy a few scenes, particularly the one where Carmen Luvana is tied down and then has sex with Jenaveve Jolie while a large group of male pirates watch. One night Jake came home while I was watching that scene, which led to us having especially hot sex, so I told him to pick out another movie he liked for us to watch another time. I don’t remember what movie he picked out specifically, but it was basically just two normal looking people fucking, which didn’t really do much for me.
Enjoying porn is all about finding what you like to watch, what turns you on. I remember Jake jokingly making fun of me for liking the Pirates scene and movie because he thinks high production pornos with costumes and plot lines are cheesy. I didn’t really think much about it at the time, but thinking back now I realize that it was the fantasies in the scene that I liked, not the plot or the costumes (though they didn’t hurt.) Having sex with girls or having people watch me while I masturbate or have sex are two of the most common scenarios that I use as masturbation material, and I was attracted to that Pirates scene because it gave me a graphic visual version of what I was already picturing in my head.
Every person is different and has different tastes in sex and therefore in porn as well. I enjoy porn because it allows me to watch people acting out sexual fantasies and share them with my partner. Just because I like something in porn, doesn’t mean I want to try it in real life. One example of this is “gang bang” scenes in movies. I was recently reading a few stories from the erotic anthology Nice Girls, Naughty Sex and was surprised to find I was extremely turned on by Emily Croy’s story “Dirty Cop Doesn’t Mean What It Used To,” which in a nutshell is about one young girl having sex with a bunch of older guys at the same time and loving it. After I read the story, I got really horny and told Jake that I wanted to watch some multiple guy on girl porn that night. We had a great time sharing a fantasy together, and I loved watching scenes of a hot girl getting attention from multiple guys and thinking about putting myself in her situation. In real life, I don’t really want a bunch of dicks; it’s just something fun to think about.
For me porn is just fuel for my imagination. When I watch porn, it isn’t primarily to see close ups on body parts and penetration, it’s to give me new ideas, images, and people to add to my own fantasies. Before I worked in the sex industry, I never realized that lots of women watch porn and love it just as much as guys do because there is still a stereotype that guys are the primary porn watchers. Now that I work in the industry, I’m around a lot of sexually open women, but I still know plenty of girls who don’t watch porn or at least don’t talk about it. So for any of you out there (and for myself), I just want to end by saying, “I’m a girl and I enjoy watching porn, and you can too!”
